Regret

A bit of this
Some of that
A hint of laughter
And shared fussiness
The glance of promise.

I ruined it, I know.

L'amour fou II

Fifteen years
Dormant a love
Which belonged to the past
Yet influenced the present
And stifled the future

Now it's fully awake
Once more
And strong, ripe, mature
A state of mind and heart
The core of me

I am lost in time
All realities have merged into one
Paralysing me in the knowledge
Mon amour fou
You are the One

Rediscovered

Rush, rush, the emotions flow
Dipping back into youthful love
Lost and found

To hear one is a memory too
Apologies made
Apologies accepted

The heart is free
Curious to explore
Rediscover a dormant ache

Je t'ai retrouvé - je suis heureuse.

Tidal Man

A wave washes over you, before you know the water retreats.
It overwhelms you and then it’s gone,
Only to return with a greater force.
The current pulls you in and you learn to swim,
Until the ebb takes away the water.
You’re left to stand on ground, not solid though,
it’s soft and wet, you slowly sink in.
The tide returns and frees you again. You float,
yet you know that it’ll retreat once more.
And each time, you’ll get stuck deeper in the mud.

Scheduled Anger

Cyclic angst and recurring pain
Repeated hate and duplicate doubt
Over and over it stings, eroding all faith.
Tears of despair of a future so bleak
No love, never for oneself
Just disgust, disproval
Then it fades and calm returns
With hope it won't come to pass again.

Playtime

Rules to follow

Or made to break

Played when shallow

Less give than take

Playground’s game

It’s you I choose

Face the shame

I’ve all to lose

Why wait?

Release me
Set me free
My heart is caged
You hold the key

Spellbound
Since the day we met
Never rare the thought despite
Best efforts to forget

Will you, won't you
Endless questions race
Around in my head
Accelerating the heart's pace

Why I wait
I really do not know
Do you have the answer?
Raise me up from this low

Uncertainty
Was never my friend
Will it be you
Who'll help me mend

Patiently
I await my turn
In vain or not
Until then I yearn.